Full of ups and downs... So why is mine full of so many downs? This year has been awful, apart from June obviously. First off, my dad goes to jail, 6 weeks before my wedding. Then I return from honeymoon and instantly hit a funk, trying to decide what I want to do with my life and really not enjoying life. Then not long after that, I spasmed my back muscle and have been off for 5 weeks so far. I am only on SSP though, and I find it disgraceful. £86.70 a week, really? When I've been working for 10 years? And I've been with the company 2 years and I'm not entitled to company sick pay? Well thanks a bunch. That's me behind on my bills!
So aside from not being able to afford my bills this month, I can also not afford the acceptance fee for the taster midwife course that I got onto!
Oh yeah, I got accepted by the way! But with all this stress I can't get excited. I don't know when I'm going back to work, and even though they have saved my place for me until payday, I'm not sure if I can afford to pay for it. So again, life strikes in the worst possible place. I'm in such a low place right now. My husband is doing the best he can, but we're both really struggling. I know things won't be easy for us while I'm on a full time education course but it is for a better future for us. And my current job is still holding me back! I just want the best life for my husband, me and a future mini D. Is that so much to ask??
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