Sorry I've not been on for a while, just been crazy. Work still stressing me out. Had a bully, and blew the whistle, but now I've been moved from one house to another (I work in residential care). Now don't get me wrong, the house is fine, but the amount of residents is the problem. There are 6 in the house, and the staff to resident ratio is 4:1, and two of the guys have weekend 1:1 support. Now all it takes is for one of the residents to go on a home visit and I'm out of work. I'm bank staff you see and I regularly pick up part time shifts on a weekend, but being bank I have no guarantee and can be cancelled if not needed. It's so annoying, especially if I'm in a quiet month and there are no hours to be had. It's one of the reasons that I feel so down about the wedding
We've been trying to have our special day for roughly two years now. But things always seem to get in the way. Well I say things, mainly money. As a result we are on a very low budget and can't afford to have the "glamorous" wedding. Instead we're getting married in a registry office and hiring out the local sports pavilion. Now I know the day is about me and h2b and the love between us, but it would be nice to have a flash day. Instead I've got hardly any aisle to walk down and a bland room with orange walls. I've been looking at getting some material and doing a marquee style draping but I'm not very creative and scared that its basically gonna look shit!!! Work isn't helping, cause I'm not getting the hours and, therefore, the money to try and sort it and its getting me down. I need to win the lottery but can't afford to play it!!!!
Oh I don't know, things will hopefully come out in the wash but I've lost all motivation and haven't done anything weddingy really. I gave notice on the 25th but things have since come to a standstill. Just wish I could get excited and get my mojo back
N xx
